Tonight is a hard night

I am in a constant state of panic

The anxious guard dog inside my chest is

Barking at noise and shadows

And I don’t know how to quiet the mutt

Fighting off anxiety by your self is strenuous work

There’s only so many times I can practice

Mindfulness and breathe deeply

My house is empty and everyone is out drinking

I was this close to going out and writing myself off too

But I decided not to and drank tea instead of beer

I didn’t think trying to stay sober would feel this lonely


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